Damn this makes me feel bad, cuz I definitely did that to a few “important” people. And I will honestly add that in terms of relationships when you really don’t care enough about somebody or their feelings (i.e. they are not a priority in your life or your decisions) no matter how much you try to pretend you care and say to them that you do care, the truth is you really just don’t care or don’t care enough for it to matter to them. So stop trying to feel better about yourself, by lying to yourself and somebody else, you are simply misleading people. In the long run, your actions will speak for you. So ask yourself why it is you are not willing to go to great lengths for the person willing to do it for you, or you will not compromise for the person as they have for you. I had to accept that about myself after a few years of blatant denial. I was afraid to admit that I didn’t care about certain people that I was supposed to care for because it would make me seem like a bad person, to them and to myself. But when you figure out that you don’t care about somebody, after trying several times to care, admit that you just don’t. It doesn’t make you a bad person at all, its just how you feel towards them. So just let em know as early as you can that you really don’t care for them. It will save you both a lot of trouble, and the situation above can be avoided. It looks easy because in reality, for the person who never cared enough, it is easy. Wish I’d given myself this advice like 4 or five years ago, but it’s cool I know better now. Specifically, someone who I hurt forced me to understand and deal with the consequences of my detachment/carelessness/inconsideration towards him in contrast with the words I would utter to him, and it didn’t feel very good at all; the guilt. It’s weird being on the other side of that post, knowing how people feel towards you because of your actions. A sincere apology can’t come close to fixing it, that’s when you realize how bad the damage was. I learned from my mistakes though. I never meant to hurt them…blah blah but I didn’t care enough to really put them into consideration when it mattered, and I have to deal with that now for the rest of my days.
I SECOND THAT EMOTION, so true.
(Source: ruoloc)
Private showdown
Starring: Mitsubishi Lancer Evo
